You know how you can be instantly attracted to someone, to their smile, their eyes, their face, the whole package, before you ever talk to them? Sometimes after you’ve talked to them your whole view of them is altered and the attraction diminishes.
Sometimes you only become aware of an attraction after you’ve spoken to someone, something in the way they talk or hold themselves or express themselves to you.
Recently I was awake at an ungodly hour and I started to think about a guy I used to work with. He’s the only person I have ever had an almost gravitational pull towards. Not even attraction, something different, like we were drawn to be in each others company. He’d often visit me in my office for chats and giggles and we got on pretty well.
I hadn’t thought about him like that in ages. For quite a while after he left our company (very suddenly and under a large black cloud, I might add) he was the subject of hushed talks, whispers and then laughs, jokes and giggles. So I forgot about the other nice stuff, the lovely warmth of having someone drawn to be in your company. The funny thing is, I can’t even remember his last name but I still remember that feeling. I wonder what he’s up to now.
And if he’s still going out with that girl who refused to move in with him until he’d bought her a rock of a particular value for a particular finger…sigh.